About the Author

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I’m an Author, EMT and Mom living in San Diego! Yay is my favorite word! I recently wrote a book called “The Dragon In You”. I have many goals for the future in terms of writing and connecting with people. 


Dragon In You is a memoir of the first 32 years of my life. I grew up Mormon, started dating my husband (Military for 14 years) who devastatingly struggled with PTSD and coped through addictions. I stayed with him for as long as I could before my physical safety grew more and more at risk. I then had to leave and advocate for him by removing myself.


He died in 2021 leaving behind myself and our 2 children. I left the Mormon Church and struggled with God for many years before finding my spirituality again and God. This is my blog to continue to share my writings.

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